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I HATE MYSELF!

Updated: Jan 10, 2019


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I hate myself.


Yes, I do, today.

Deeply and intensely.


I hate myself for not starting,

for not committing.

for not keeping my promise.


I did not write today.

I will start tomorrow.


I did not wake up early this morning.

I will start tomorrow.


I did not eat healthy or on time.

I will start tomorrow.


I did not meditate today.

I will start tomorrow.


I was not productive.

I will be tomorrow.


I hate myself today.

I will love myself tomorrow.


I did not. I did not. I did not.

I will. I will. I will.


Today :(

Tomorrow :)


Bullshit.


I love myself today.


Despite all my failures,

I love myself.


No...


Because of all my failures,

I love myself.


Because I could not keep my promise,

I love myself today.


Because I am sometimes weak,

And distracted,

And not committed,

And foolish,

And human,

I love myself today.


Because it’s easy to hate myself,

I love myself today.


Because it takes courage to say it,

I love myself today.


Because most people hate themselves,

I love myself today.


Because today might be my last,

I love myself today.


Because I may end up hating myself tomorrow again,

I love myself today.


Allow yourself to love yourself.


It’s the shame, the anger, the denial…

That paralyse you... And keeps you from seeing the whole of you.


You are not broken, or incapable, or stuck.


And if ever you feel you are, say to yourself:

I did not. I did not. I did not.

It’s okay.


Today :)

Tomorrow :)

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